Mother Nature, I HATE YOU.

2 days. 2 DAYS LATE. I typically have a 15 day LP and I passed it by 2 days. I didn't think I could be late without being pregnant taking Clomid and the hCG shot, but I was.

And if that wasn't bad enough, I had this taunting me.

I let my hopes get the best of me and I truly thought this could be possible. AF didn't come yesterday like it should have. Yesterday was the last possible day I could get it. And the day came and went with nothing. I woke this morning and saw my temp dive and I knew it. It was in fact not possible. But I still, for some reason, held out hope even after the negative test because I still hadn't gotten my period. Well, at noon, it came. It was like a slap in the face. Like, "See, this is what you get for getting for hopes up stupid. You know better than to do that". I feel especially stupid since I knew after failing the post coital test that this wouldn't work. Hope is evil and I hate it.

So now we are on a forced break. We can't do IUI right now because I'm not gonna screw the little one on Christmas because we want to do something that may or may not work. So basically I'll be on birth control until probably our taxes come in.

This. Sucks.

I'm sure mother nature was far too busy knocking up some teenager for MTV, or a drug addict, or someone who either doesn't want or shouldn't have a baby right now due to not having a job or income etc to have time for me. Screw you.

Mother Nature, Why Must You Torment Me So?

I did not wake up with AF as I expected to. I'm due today. My luteal phase tends to fluctuate from 14-16 days, but on average it's 15 days. I realize it's not even noon yet here but this is giving me hope. That and my temp only went down a little. Usually on the day I get my period, my temp plummets so I'm either going to get it very late tonight or tomorrow. I guess we'll just have to wait and see. If AF doesn't get here by tonight, at least my morning temp will let me know what's going on. If it's still up and I haven't gotten my period still, I'm going to be one very happy girl. But I'm not counting on it.

Welcome

I've decided I don't want to intertwine my info blog with my personal life TOO much so I figured I'd keep anyone who is interested updated on our journey here. There won't be too much to write about in the upcoming 2 or so months since we will be on an unwanted TTC break, but whatever.

Currently I'm waiting for AF to arrive. It should be here today at the very earliest and Tuesday at the very latest. Normal would be tomorrow. I've gotten nothing but negative tests since the hCG from the trigger shot left my system so it's just a matter of waiting. It's very unlikely that we will be getting a positive since my cervical fluid sucks. Of course watch me get the positive and this whole blog will be a bust (or at least turned into a pregnancy blog).